Another year older...

Another year older today.

I'm overwhelmed by all sorts of thoughts and emotions.  But mostly, I'm filled with worry.  I'm worried about the future and what's in store for me and my family.  I can't help but worry.

My boss just reprimanded me for nodding off at work last Sunday.  His mole on the factory floor told him that me and a colleague had fallen asleep at our desks last Sunday and that we had barely gone out to the factory floor.  I didn't bother to deny this.  I told him that I'm formally requesting for a transfer to a  different department where the work is straight day-shift.  I'm no longer able to really stay awake at the wee hours of the morning during the night shift.

Its either I get a transfer, or I quit my job and look for work where I won't have to work nights.

And this scares the shit out of me.  I have my family to think of and now this shit.  Sheesh.  How on Earth am I gonna find work at my age?